That smile oh that smile I
hear it in your voice,
Kaleidoscopic colors from your mouth
made by choice,
And I fall a little deeper
a little deeper than before,
Drugged a little deeper
needing a little more….
Tag Archive: Love
Its 10pm and I’m so tired I
need sleep,
My mind moves faster
my thoughts you keep,
Its 11pm
and I’m missing you,
My Sweet my heart
you have so true,
Its 12am and at the ceiling I
stare,
I so want to message you
just to know your there,
Its 1am
and my mind whirls on,
I know I’d never cope
if you were gone,
Its 2am
and anxiety kicks in,
Tell me my Sweet
in which way do you sin,
Its 3am
your better than me,
This silence is hurting
it won’t let me be,
Its 4am
wish you were here,
Damn all I want
is just to have you near,
Its 5am getting light
outside,
From all these thoughts?
there’s nowhere to hide,
Its 6 am your going
to bad,
Try not to cry
to much I’ve said,
Its 7am
my day must start,
You reside
so deep in my heart,
Its 8am
here its all go,
My Sweetness these thoughts
my heart it does know,
Its 9am
I sit on the floor,
My Sweetness these thoughts
my emotions are raw,
Its 10am
tell me how I cope,
I’ll tell you my love
its because I have hope,
Its 11am I’m tired
and alone,
So wish I
could call you my own,
Its 11am
is there another lady?
I’m getting emotional
there isn’t a maybe,
Its 12pm do you dream
of me,
Do you think of the future
and what it can be,
Its 1pm
a message from you,
My heart skips a beat
I fall in love anew,
2pm I saw
you online,
I do that to
from time to time,
Its now 3pm,
sleeps calling me,
I day dream of you
of what could be,
Its 4pm
you send me a moon,
Fate is an ass
I’m enveloped in gloom,
5pm and we’ve talked
I feel sad,
Your busy I’m lost
I must be so bad,
6pm our conversations no depth
I know that your busy but don’t talk to me,
Its only “I love yous”
guess I’ll leave you be,
Its 7pm
feels like I’m falling apart,
I must of been shot
there’s a hole iny heart,
Its 8pm
How’re you? how’s your day,
I’m ok, its going
is all that you day,
Its 9pm
so in love with you,
So many damn thoughts
wonder how many are true,
Its 10pm
I’ve been up twenty four,
My Sweetness I’m tired
but can’t sleep once more….
….show me
the ruins of your soul,
I’ll show you they’re not ruins
you are whole,
Show me this darkness
that you hide,
I’ll show you
your brilliance inside,
You tell me I’ll leave
from your decay,
I’m telling you your amazing
and I’ll stay….
.x.
“Ok. Humor me.” He said. “Tell me.”
“A hurricane.” She said simply. “Imagine the a person as a hurricane, they have to stay on the edges and never get to close. They destroy or leave in disarray everything they touch.” She sighed…. “Such intensity, passion, an emotional whirlwind. Not many could cope with that.”
“If it were real? It would be lonely.” He smiled.
“Yes….” She looked down.
“Now imagine that hurricanes a fire. When I finally showed him? He showed me that there’s an ocean inside of him that would calm my fire, deal with the emotions, the intensity, that would take my storms.”
He nodded, understanding but lost in thought.
“Tell me who wouldnt want to drown in the calming intensity of another?” She drew a circle on the table with her finger. “I told him that he was my darkness, the perfect pitch for me. Truth is? He’s my light.”
This time that
has past,
My Sweetness
did you think it’d last,
So much
and we grow,
My dearest Sweetness I
want you to know,
My heart and soul
they call for you,
You rule my veins
and mind so true,
My Sweetness tell me
do you see,
The profound affect
you have on me,
With you is where I
want to be,
No other place I
would do it for me….
I long to be that something
that your fingers always touch,
To be that little something
that you use so much,
And I desire
to be a part,
Hidden from sight
so deep in your heart,
Those quiet hours
when in thought your alone,
Find a place deep within you
and call it my home,
I guess its those little things
that are the things that I long for,
But quite simply all I need is your smile
and I fall deeper than before….
.x.
I wish I could enter
your mind,
Oh so many secrets
would it scare me what I’d find,
I’d walk those corridors
sparking light as I go,
Its not your secrets they’re safe
just your thoughts I want to know,
I’d spark spirals of light with fingers
running off into the dim,
Scale your high walls
find the you from within,
Inside I know your filled with forests
lush green with thoughts anew,
I catch glimpses sometimes
it makes me fall even deeper for you,
I want to face your nightmares
each and every one I’d slay,
So you could rest easy each and every night
and wake with a smile each day,
As time goes on and I’ve learnt so much
i know all I desire is more,
Those breathtaking glimpses when you let your guard down
i want you even more than before,
I see it in your pictures sometimes
when your mind is definitely not here,
Those times I wish I could pull you closer
and ask to let me near,
The perfect equation good bad dark light
so true,
Please don’t hide from this girl
who is so in love with you….
.x.
Gypsy girl
dressed in red and black,
Auburn curls
fall down your back,
In the garden
bare feet you sway,
The music transports you
so far away,
In your sweet voice I
hear you say,
That you think of him
every single day,
Tell me what
it is about him,
You’ve called him the sweetest
most perfect sin,
Gypsy girl so wild
untame,
Tell me how your heart
he’s slain,
Tell me how he has your soul
so true,
And how anything for him
you will do,
Gypsy girl
bare feet on earth,
You set yourself on fire
and from the ashes rebirth,
You weave your words
speak of love in waves,
You say you drown in him
and yet you he save’s,
Gypsy girl
dressed in red and black,
Auburn curls
fall down your back,
So tell me girl
does he own your soul,
Much more you reply
he owns me whole….
.x.
I want to tell you that I think of you
when the sun goes down,
And I think of those eyes such a depth
and I drown,
You’ve got
this key,
And it unlocks something
so deep inside of me,
I drown in you
and I care not,
Until there’s only you
everything else forgot,
And I know that I often
get things wrong,
But know that my heart
to you belong,
That you would but see
the same in me,
When I see nothing but you
for eternity….
.x.
Current song….
So much on my mind I’ve hardly slept.
I swear I’m clawing
at the walls of my own mind,
And I’m crying and I’m failing
everywhere is you I find,
I’m shouting and I’m screaming
the wind whips the words away,
But I guess it doesn’t matter
you don’t hear what I say,
My heart and soul keep crying for you
so I play the music so loud,
But it just can’t go up high enough
to block their deafening sound,
There are times…. not many but yes times, where there are so many words, far to many words, and I fall into the abyss of them. I love words, I adore words. I love how you break them down and put them back together. How they can bring joy or heartache. How they can build you up or strip you bare. But there are so many words swirling in a never ending vortex and I just want to give up and not write. Let them just envelope me instead.
Current song….
“Don’t know what you’ve got.” By “Cinderella.”
I give up today.
My every breath is stained with your name….
(Just to make life worse? The song that has just started playing? “Til my last day.” Right now? I give up….)
