Tag Archive: Life


~…Metaphor…~

Bird just a bird sitting on the concrete

tell me why do you look at the sky?

Oh tell me little birdie

on broken wing can’t you fly?

Scamper around in the grit and the dirt

why do you walk in the gutter?

Show me birdie where is your song

please tell me why do you stutter?

And you look my way

with remorseful eye,

Then tilt your sweet head

to the crystal clear sky,

Come on little birdie

have faith i do say,

Have courage little birdie

your wings are ok,

And you expand your chest

and stretch out your wings,

You fly into the sky

your melodious voice sings,

And with a smile

I turn from the mirror…

.x.

Wednesday….

My mind is torn between what I want and doing what’s right. Such a war….

Things I know? I am not a good person and I never will be….

Just words….

I stood in the bathroom and cried

and the moon watched through the rain,

It all got to much and I got so lost

that silent moon watched my pain,

So lost I

went for a walk,

No voice that I

can talk,

No way that I

can go,

No nothing but thoughts

to show,
And I am 

slowly breaking,

Apart my heart

is taking,

Nothing will remain 

the same,

And the moon will move on

in life’s big game….


Let me wither away, break, and grind to dust….
Took this from a page I admin on, on fb. The page is called “The Forgotten Realms” it’s one of 2 pages I admin on, the other is called “Shadow Holiday” 

One for dark art and one for quotes. 

War within….

To set me aflame and die a million deaths, to separate for years me and you…. there is nothing that can kill this or stop the want or need. Etched so deep on my bones you cannot be erased….

 I give up. Let me burn then let my charred remains fall, let them drown in the sea of my endless tears….

For there is nothing left. Nothing but emptiness, this void as I lose end empty and become less so much less. 

Forget me as I fade unworthy of a memory allowing myself only the joy of destroying myself….

​She tried. She really tried. But right now? Everything’s falling apart. Her walls are falling into the sea of her tears and she can’t hold it together any longer. Time to turn her phone off before she smashed it and pull herself together. She’s is better than this. She is worthy. She is above this shit. So why doesn’t she feel it?

Why do you do it

hurt me this way,

You expect me to keep going

day after day,

I’m sick of all

your stupid lies,

Your torment on my heart

the way you pretend goodbyes,

Why make me cry

does it make you feel good,

You tell me I’m not listening

that your misunderstood,

And I say I’m sorry

sorry all the time,

And you say well what for 

and the problem it’s mine,

And things they go great 

for a day or two,

And then your here but your not

in that way that you do,

And I know what your doing

but to afraid to say,

I just let you carry on

when I should walk away….

.x.


Thoughts….

All these thoughts and feelings
they’re messing with my head,
And her mocking words spin on and on
til I’m wishin I was dead,
I rip into myself
and push myself so low,
And yet for you I care so damn much I
don’t know which way to go….
.x.

All this shit….

….taking my cue from you i’m
so unsure how to act,
Do I show you affection
or for now do keep it to fact,
I read it word emotionless
they cut like a knife,
But this is better than nothing
even though it cuts like a knife,
And unsure so unsure
of the words I’m allowed to say,
Because it’s your way your rules
and this is the game you play,
And you know I’m going to follow
you know how much I care,
And you know I’m going nowhere
you know I’m always there,
Your game your life
you rule,
I care to much take my cue from your word I
guess I’m just your fool….

And so she dies a little….

Did I tell you
did I tell you don’t go,
Cause I’m struggling I
know I’m falling deeper does it show,
And I’m afraid yes so afraid
of getting hurt by you,
All these feelings shock me
they mock and stick like glue,
If it would make a difference I’d ask you
stay with me,
But I gotta hold these feelings back
just can’t let them free,
Oh so many rules
of which I must abide,
Cause I’m just some dirty secret
one which you do hide….

.x.