I wanted to give up
I wanted to give up so bad,
I expected you
to be so mad,
I thought that you’ll leave
when I need you to stay,
Please please please
don’t ever go away,
I know that I’m broken
and I feel lost and alone,
and I know that’s partly my fault
And I’m wholly to blame,
The gray talks to me
pulling me into its game,
And I go
I fucking keep going,
Rational thinking
its knowing,
But I give in I’m so weak
can’t do this,
I push but it takes
the piss,
I want to
give in,
Keep drowning
within,
I keep saying I got this
I’m good,
But those are my lies
sugar-coated misunderstood,
Sugar-coated crystalline candy
love heart lies,
Because in my head I’m saying
goodbyes,
I’m slinking further
away,
I’m giving up more
every day,
But deep down
I need you to stay,
Please don’t leave though I push
you away,
I keep walking closer
closer to the edge,
It beckons and it calls me
step up to the ledge,
And I try and I fight
but I’m exhausted inside,
And I’m so damn sorry I
told you I was okay because I lied,
I want to give in,
But giving in
is a sin,
Life is so precious
and I feel so much shame,
My head is a mess
and I know I’m to blame,
I feel I’m not worthy
I should walk out life’s door,
But I’m not worth the time put a smile on
get up off the floor,
Please don’t leave
say that you’ll stay,
I’m cold with emotions
and push everyone away,
I lock myself off I
lock myself down,
And I know its my fault
I keep the gray in so I drown,
I drown quietly so
that you’ll never know,
Because I’m so ashamed of me I’m bad tainted
please don’t leave don’t go…
.x.
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