How did you do it I
heard her say,
What were you thinking
on that desperate day,
And I thought and I thought
and I thought some more,
The release as I watched
the blood on the floor,
Drop drip drops
the blood hits the ground,
And my heart beating loud in my ears
the only sound,
Blood life blood the strangest red
and I watched mesmerized,
As all around me
my life capsized,
The banging fading
as down the tiles I did slide,
Screaming so surreal
as calmness washed like a tide,
She’s unconscious a mans voice said
as I embraced the pure black,
Sometimes voices floated
but in the calmness I lost track,
“…..” there it is again
a man’s calling my name,
I wanna stay in the black
not face the world play its game,
The waitress with coffee breaks my thought
My friend looking at me with a smile,
Thinking about how far I’ve come
and the times I thought it not worth while,
Does it matter? I say
as I give a soft sigh,
You’ve got so much that’s good
so I can’t help but wonder why?,
Nothing was good
way back then,
I needed to hit that self destruct button learn to accept me for me
learn to smile and breathe again….
.x.
An empty space.... 