Archive for June, 2013
You I remember you
sitting in the front room your chair,
The smell of cigarette smoke
the newspaper the crossword your concentration your hair,
Horse racing wrestling golf football
the pools,
Silent yet you commanded the front room
your rules,
All these years later
so many memories of you,
So many different things
and each one still like new,
From being there when I was ill
your quiet comforting way,
To foot wars in the front room
i’m reminded of you every day,
Of all the people to have entered my life
you left the biggest light,
And even when I lost my way
that light flickered just out of sight,
I never told you how much you meant
“feelings” the things I just don’t do,
But even though we weren’t flesh and blood
your the meaning of the word dad yes you,
That night I said I wanted to leave
i was in such a fucked up place,
And then you said “Go on leave then, get out”
i saw the hurt on your face,
It kick started something within me
Something that never went away,
And I knew before they told me
that the angels took you away,
I miss you yes I miss you
every single day….
.x.
The snow falls softly outside the bars
inside the lightbulb hits with a glare,
Cuz theres no comforts here
it’s void it’s barren it’s bare,
It’s christmas but
no cards carols or love,
I don’t blame those that remember
just accept all the hatred they shove,
I hear the footsteps
out in the hall,
I accept my fate
just stare at the wall,
Memories of
the times gone by,
I don’t deserve the tear
that comes to my eye,
These hands are murderous
these hands are mine,
Wish I could turn back forever
tick back time,
The door it creaks
swings open wide,
The wardens face
a grin he can’t hide,
Get up and then walk
down the corridor,
To a cold hard trolley
no warmth just law,
Forgive me forgive me
dear lord I’ve said,
I didn’t mean
to shoot them dead,
A bullet in their
brown haired heads,
There was shouting screaming
coherent thoughts I lacked,
Then with gun in hand
i just attacked,
Blood everywhere
blood bright red,
Armed police screaming
my babies dead,
I lay on the trolley
priest asks “Do you have a last word?”,
But my prayer begging for forgiveness
will never be heard,
This trolley is cold
no comfort no friend,
And the acceptance of knowledge that with death
the pain won’t end….
“…. If a piece of writing makes the reader think….
…. Then the job of the writer is done….”
.x.
My son plays this game, you might of heard of it, in fact all my children play it but my son is good at it. Its called Adventure Quest Worlds it’s an MMORPG. He was trying to do 2 different things last night ( and failing ), when he asked me if I could battle these monsters. Why not? So there I am killing skeletal warriors, skull warriors and undead infantry bringing down my sword ( The Tormenter), and they aren’t even the cool ones. Dage? His armour? And sword? Yup I most definitely want that outfit in my closet, and yep I’m serious!! Anyway a little inspiration hits and….
A little thought….
~ Battle…. ~
Men men
so many men,
So tired and weary
and yet and then,
Cut and scarred
dented and bruised,
Bloody from battle
mercilessly used,
A pawn on the chessboard
a pawn in his hand,
You can’t kill the dead
that walk across this land….
.x.
I’m hopelessly helplessly
falling into you,
I see you everywhere I go
and my dreams at night to,
Thoughts of you they
swirl round my mind,
At the barbecue I looked up
it’s your eyes I find,
And some how and yet
you always know,
Leaning on the balcony looking at the ocean
turn your by my side it’s the little things that show,
Your skin brushing against mine
your arm around pulling me closer away from the ocean the skies,
The soft electric shocks you give off
the depth of your eyes,
You laugh your smile that look
and I’m falling falling and you don’t let go,
Your strength your warmth your fingers gently strumming against my back
your heartbeat the energy flow,
You whisper in my ear I smile totally caught up
in this moment of you,
Here your arm around me on the balcony
our friends laughing chatting relaxing its true,
But all I see is the depth of your eyes
and I’m falling
falling into the deep emotional depths,
This moment,
Just falling
and you,
you don’t let go….
.x.
It’s an old one but, I kinda like it….
If I was lost
would you take my hand,
Would you take me to
a promised land,
Would you hold me close
don’t let me go,
Capture my mind
but let it grow,
If I gave you my heart
would you hold it in your hand,
Would you wrap it in blue ribbon
would you bury it in the sand,
Would you
watch it glow,
would you care for it always
would you watch it grow,
Let us walk in the water
as we look high above,
At a world full of angels
singing with their love….
.x.
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