Archive for October, 2012

~ Time to let go…. ~


Stand on the beach

hold a pebble in your hand,

Close your eyes take a breath

try to understand,

Such a depth of feeling

staying strong all through the years,

But time has come to let it go

its gonna rain with tears,

Grip the pebble tightly

let the feelings flow,

Drop the pebble to the beach

its time to let you go,

Let you go….

Your nothing but a pebble

that I left upon the beach,

Sometimes ghosted memories remind me

but your smile is out of reach,

Your nothing but a pebble

feelings dropped upon the beach,

The beach

the beach,

Like a million other pebbles

you glisten out of reach,

Your nothing but a pebble

that I dropped upon the beach….




Just dropping lines and thoughts….


When I was younger poems were something I loved to read but was no good at writing. I mean yeah I could string the words together and could write but not poems. Poems for me weren’t like story’s, you could lose yourself in a story but a poem? that could transport you to a mystical magical place…. Thats how it was for me. I tried poems, I wrote them to friends, in birthday cards and letters. Everyone I knew said they were great but I didn’t believe so.

I went round to a friends one day when I was 16 and a man was sat in a chair drinking a cup of tea. I didn’t know him didn’t recognise him but he was a friend of the family and my mate Lee’s parents weren’t back yet. It was Lee’s birthday and I gave him his card with another poem in it, Smiling he said to this man that I was good at poems. Handing him the card to read he disappeared and came back a few mins later with every poem, letter and silly story I had ever writ him, I was kinda shocked he kept them. The man sat reading them quietly for ages then said to me and this I will always remember….

“If you write with your heart, like you do here, your writing will always be the best you can give.”

He also said that the best writers are those that aren’t afraid to write about any topic, he was talking to me personally  about poem writers but it applies to all.

I took what he said and remembered it. I try very hard to make sure that every poem I write has feeling, that hopefully, you the reader enjoys it. Good, bad, happy, sad, emotional, anger, despair, depression, love. Sometimes I have to look so deep into myself to find that feeling in order to show it in a poem. No topic is safe. I will write about anything and everything. Every poem I write is not necessarily how I’m feeling that day.

That man? the one who told me that? He’s an author and grew up with Lee’s dad in America. I didn’t realise till about 5 years later when I saw his picture on a dust jacket of the book I was buying. At the time, being 16, and the way I was it was more interesting breaking the law and ignoring adults than listening to what they had to say. Lee and his family went to Australia for a better life when I was 18. I spoke to him a few days ago and he told me he still has those letters and poems and stuff. I laughed and asked why he would keep them? His answer? “When you finally publish something, it’s gonna be great, and, I’m gonna blessed that not only did I know you first but I have my own private collection of the real you.” How cool is that? I was stunned into silence!

My next post will be number 200 on wordpress. I didn’t think I would carry this on but, I found I like not just the writing but more and more, I like the publishing! And it’s so incredibly cool that I get to read the work of so many very talented people! And look at the most amazing photos! You all should be proud! 🙂

So I don’t know what post number 200 is gonna be yet? Maybe I should pick my favorite posts of the other 199? Or maybe just another poem? We’ll see….

Happiest of hugs to you all, I hope the weekend is just fabtastic for you!


~ Crashing…. ~


Today I’m crashing….

My mind emotions feelings thoughts

in free fall,

I couldn’t care less all reasonable thought gone

my happiness disappeared fuck you all,

Today I’m empty

void of thought,

I can’t remember what I’m doing

can’t remember the smile steps I’m taught,

I’m so tired

energy taken from flesh and bone,

Gray swirls around keeps negativity

i feel alone,

I feel so lost

so empty today,

My smile is gone

packed its bags gone away,

Darkness is calling me

smudges the edges of real,

Comprehension is gone

nothing makes me feel,

Today my heads


I struggle 

to get dressed,

Today I want to run


I don’t want to be me I don’t want to 


Today I feel a disappointment

i feel hated,

Today I feel so low that even

unloved seems over rated,

Tomorrow I may feel better happier

or just the same,

I can’t guarantee I’m gonna be ok

i’m on depressions board game….





~ Aged…. ~



they just slip away,

Forgotten with the memories

of yesterday,

The music exhales

releases its breath,

Melody streams off

key notes nimble and deft,

Pictures curl

the edges crinkled and brown,

The memory-ed smiles that are left

get all watered down,

The bad times 

not so bad,

Emotional times

not so sad,

Then it all seemed

so much more real,

Now it’s sepia seeped moments

all that’s left is how I feel….




I received 2 awards on the same day, how cool is that?

My second award is the WONDERFUL TEAM MEMBER READERSHIP AWARD from elamany.

Elamany has a brilliant blog and if you’ve never been over there the poems fantastic, I always leave smiling  🙂


This award has rules which are….

1. The Nominee of the Wonderful Team member Readership Award shall display the logo on his/her post/page and/or sidebar.

2. Over a period of 7 days (1 week), the Nominee shall nominate a number of readers that he or she appreciates – this can be done at any rate during the week. It can be all on one day or a few on one day and a few on another day, as most convenient to the Nominee.

3. The Nominee shall name his or her Wonderful Team Member Readership Award nominees on a post or on posts during the 7 day (1 week) period.

And some questions….

1) Why do you blog?

Do you know, I’ve never actually thought about it really? I’ll come back to it!

2) If you were trapped on a desert island, what book, DVD, food, cartoon character, and childhood game would you bring?

Hmm? The Library Shakspeare Millennium Edition, Any fruit, Donald Duck, Skipping Rope, Don’t know about the DVD, I like to many!

3) Share a funny joke or one-liner.

Erm? I can’t tell jokes.

 4) What is your favourite thing about your self?

My stubbornness!

5) What one word best describes you?


6) If you could have a lifetime supply of any candy/candy bar, what would it be?

Sugar free Polos.

7) What fictional character do you relate to most?

Don’t know? None?

8) If you were to write the story of your life, what would you call it?

Don’t know, I’m still living it!

Time to nominate some fabtastic people!

All these blogs are different and all super fantastic. I hope you like them as much as I do!

Happy hugs everybody.x.x.


I’ve been nominated for a few awards and I need to thank these people…. 🙂

First I want to thank Tom Lucas  for the Reality Blog Award. If you haven’t been to his blog, it’s got a little of everything for everyone. (The poems are my fav!).

Like all the awards there are questions to go with it and people to nominate as well so here goes!

1) If you could change something what would you change?

I’d change the school system in the UK. I have good friends who are teachers and all have the same complaint…. Schooling seems to be made up of more paper work and targets and less about teaching. A harassed teacher worried about target deadlines is less likely to be a fun inspirational teacher.

2) If you could repeat an age, what age would it be?

I wouldn’t. Simple.

3) What one thing really scares you?

Honestly?  Trusting people.

4) What one dream have you not completed yet and do you think you will be able to complete it.

Next year I start my BA in Humanities, so completing it and completing it well.

5) If you could be someone else for a day, who would you be?

Oh easy! I’d be a man! 😉


Time to nominate some fantastically brilliant people!

I picked some truly fantastic people, hope you like them to. There are other people but I have other awards and they will appear there!

Hope the rest of your day is fantastic.x.



Hello you!

Hi! How are you? Fab I hope!

I want to ask you all a question!

I like to take a word and write my impression of it ( Have you noticed? ). I’ve 25 of them going back quite a while now. I love words, like how one little word can have such a big meaning or one very long word can mean something small. So in thinking about words, here’s my question….

What is your interpretation of one of or both of the following words?


sol·e·cism  (sl-szm, sl-)


1. A nonstandard usage or grammatical construction.
2. A violation of etiquette.
3. An impropriety, mistake, or incongruity.

[Latin soloecismus, from Greek soloikismos, from soloikizein, to speak incorrectly, from soloikos,speaking incorrectly, after Soloi (Soli), an Athenian colony in Cilicia where a dialect regarded as substandard was spoken.]

sole·cist n.
sole·cistic adj.

The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition copyright ©2000 by Houghton Mifflin Company. Updated in 2009. Published byHoughton Mifflin Company. All rights reserved.


ThesaurusLegend:  Synonyms Related Words Antonyms
Adj. 1. dislogistic – expressing disapproval; “dyslogistic terms like `nitwit’ and `scalawag'”

uncomplimentary – tending to (or intended to) detract or disparage
Based on WordNet 3.0, Farlex clipart collection. © 2003-2012 Princeton University, Farlex Inc.
I’ve put what the words mean ( just to remind you ).
So written in either a poem or a thought, what is your impression of the above words?
Well, happy hugs to ALL of you.x.x.

~ Lust…. ~


A thought of you I

catch my breath,

A text from you

there’s no breath left,

You look my way

my knees go weak,

You smile at me 

i forget how to speak,

The smell of your clothes

the scent of you,

Makes me lightheaded 

and dizzy too,

I wouldn’t say I

trust in you,

I’d definitely say I

lust in you….






….Gonna love you 

    ….past the day I die….

        ….Your name is etched

            ….upon my soul….

                ….And although we are so far in miles

                    ….thoughts of you they keep me whole….



~ Attraction…. ~



There’s something about you

so defiant and wild,

It’s something untamed

an anger so riled,

You shift me to standing

on an uneven plane,

Your intensity leaves me awestruck

and I’m breathless again,

Such dominant eyes

and power exuding stance,

From knees weak to glacial

your eyes change with one glance,

An aura of hunger

deep thinker dangerous and dark,

When it comes to being secretive

your so quick off the mark,

A recklessness I’m drawn to

you take chances leap off the ledge,

Your lightness darkness good and bad

you walk on laws edge….





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