Hey and hello all, How you keeping? Good I hope?

I’ve never been a good sleeper and as far back as I can remember and, have been told even what I can’t remember, I’ve done everything from not sleeping at all to  nightmares to sleep walking to climbing down a drain pipe with my quilt <— They filmed that and showed me! I seemed to settle down and now don’t sleep walk to often, maybe once a month or 2 months. I got my sleeping to a routine to, I average about 3 hours a night. Just lately I’ve only been managing an hour or less. Yup it’s safe to say I both look and feel like a zombie!!!!

So I’m sat in the doc’s office and telling him how I feel, apart from tired I’m good, in fact, I couldn’t be happier at the mo. Now I hate doctors, yeah they do what they do and I owe them my middle and youngest sons life’s but I don’t have to like them. I suffer from anaemia and my iron lvls are shit most of the time. He sits there after reading my notes and says with a grin…. You must be depressed, I will give you anti-depressants. No. I didn’t swear at him ( I wanted to!), I just said I was happy and that depression is not the only reason you can’t sleep. Next time I’m ill (rarely), I’ll stay home. I got up and walked out with him still saying we should check you and do bloods…..  Blurrrr.  🙂

As I’m tired I can’t seem to write a poem properly and am coming up with a strange mish mash. It looks like someone’s took a dozen perfectly good poems and put them in a blender, turned it on wizzzzz  then put it equally into 2 dozen little bowls and said…. “hey presto!! Job done.”  Honest and true….  Ggggrrrrrr….

I really need a clear head tomorrow as I need to make and decorate a cake for friday afternoon.  JD and vodka 10pm you are mine, drink induced sleep here I come. It’s not a good way to do it but hey, it works and I don’t get hangovers(which is good!).

I been reading all your posts and you all give me smiles, you all have such a passion to write and are so talented. You all should be proud. Me? I’m proud to follow such an immensely talented bunch! ……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………

Okay your either smiling or saying yup sleeps really having an affect on her…. LOL  🙂

I’ve been thinking a lot about someone just lately and I’m gonna try and let the mind flow a little and see what happens….Maybe some good non blender-ed  words? We’ll see….

I don’t think I would be me if I didn’t write something half meaningful on here so I’m leaving you all with this….  My current words in life(they change)….

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….Words help me Believe that I do have the Courage to have Faith in myself….

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Happy Hugs All.x.x.

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P.S. :- Oh big bad me, I forgot! Today is….. HAPPY 4TH OF JULY to everyone across the puddle!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hugs.x.

 

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